The Happiest Time Of Year!

I wish all the nice things about christmas was spread out a little bit more than it is :)

I wish that in stead of 30 gifts in one night I d get 2 a month :)

I wish that everybody could feel the love of family all year around :)

I finished my thesis in time. I got all the presents in place, and my apartment is all dolled up in all its christmas glory. I ve spent christmas day in a daze. A little flu came over me as I finished everything up, and I think it's because I let my guard down all together. That's fine though. I kind of needed it. It might be the dreaded swine flu, but my immune system can take it. Gotta love my immune system, lol. It's so strong.

Era got a little dried up wiener (yeah like a penis...lol) for xmas, that s her highlight. She had it while the rest of us wrapped up all our presents. People are nuts man!!! I can't tell you the nicest pressie I got, cos everything was so nice. I got little puppets from Guatemala. Their supposed to take your worries away. You put them under your pillow at night and you whisper your worries to them, and they take them away :)))

Sis gave me a satin pyjamah and mum and dad gave me woollie underwear and a gift card for "expert". Expert is a shop that sells electronics. I am getting a flat screen telly after new years. :Ø

Future is looking bright. I am doing fun stuff for NY. New project. Will tell you all about it very soon.
And now. I am gonna go for a walk with my doggie. :))) Here's a little photo of her, she got herself a little marine-top for xmas. She loved it <3

Merry Christmas Folks:))))

Still 3 weeks to go but..........

......I want to summarize. I feel the need to summarize!
2009 was the year i..

 

Lost 10 kgs
Got a dog
Got closer to my dad
Handed in a master thesis
Regained strength I didn't realize i had
Did inner work i didn't realize i needed
Enjoyed a long summer filled with happy-moments(i think i  need to talk more on this one):

• Shared beautiful and philosphically filled evenings in Arendal with honeybun Kristin under a starfilled blue moon sky
• Ran on the beach with my pup and made her swim in the arctic freezing ocean and doing yoga with my bestest Anette...
• Drove around in my car enjoying insane views in sunny Lofoten
• Partying with friends and seeing new ones and being social and loving life in general

This summer was awesome.

Other than that....I've come a long way with work as well. And my learning curve has been steep. Especially the Cruise Industry and working within this field has given me loads.

2009 was a great year. Still 3 weeks to go. Am gonna enjoy every minute of it. The darkness and the lighting and the beautiful and stable weather of the season is making Lofoten the best place to be in and xmas is closing in and i can't wait to just hand in my thesis and hang with all friends and family and feel those little happy jiggly feelings in stomach.

Got to go. Era needs attention. So does my thesis. A good day to you all :)

About vampires and others who suck!

Working 80 hours a week, sleeping less than what is human possible and just in general having shitloads on my mind - I ve been able to practise something that I really have not been able to do before.

I am one of those people who is wide open. And it is taken advantage off by vampires. Those energy suckers, u know? And I can be way too nice to just tell them to back off. But now, I'm just not able to take it in. Not physically and not mentally. This has given me the eyes to see when it's actually happening. I haven't been able to before. And now I see it clear as daylight. The worst ones are the ones where I try and try to find solutions to their problems - and the actually seems to fuel them into a more and more victim focused mentality. They are not looking for solutions.

Signs to look for: It is the ones who are capable of turning any theme of convo into something about themselves, turning into negatively charged stories about how something has happened to them, mostly without any fault of their own. They don't want to change. They thrive on the pity and the sympathy that YOU supply - and that's what drains you...

Do you recognize it? Further on, they will go a long way to make you react. They will charge the situation from all angles, to find out what makes you tick. All the while hiding behind their own self righteous motivations. Believe you me, they honestly believe they are in their right to act in this manner...

Do not let them capture you. And leave them behind.

Note To Self

Will be looking into getting tattoooooooooos :)

Can't wait to get started on all my other projects:)

So then I went to bed
And I dreamt of you
Don't know how you look
But your soul is blue

Blue out of trouble
Blue out of pain
Haven't been smiling
Need to see it again

So now I long for it
the sweet sorrow of yours
I can t wait to go to sleep
Again abandon reality and all its' chores

I guess I was blind
I guess I couldn't see
That the blue soul of yours
In reality was me...

(r) Lone Olsen (r)

Gettin By With One Nostril Above Water...lol

I know yeah, that means that I'm most definitely taking in water. And loads of it. It is December 1st now......

My stomach is boiling warm. It does not longer know when it's hungry - or full. My head is spinning - from getting too little sleep. My neck and shoulders are soon no longer seperate entities. And my migraines had my head running on very low for 5 days last week.

Sounds like I'm in a war zone. One thing is for sure. It sorta has been - a war zone -  for 2,5 years. And I have entered my last and biggest battle. My body is first proof of that. I've not been very nice to it have I....

There are so many things annoying me at the time being - everyone are stoked about the xmas feeling. And I don't even allow myself to take it in. There is no capacity for it. Inbalance.

It's not a complaint really, I'm actually quite curious about how my body reacts to not having enough sleep and constantly working with stuff. I am - actually - putting in 75 hour weeks - and have been for the last soon 3 months. If I slack off I feel like crap, and when I work - well the efficiency of it all is quite changeable.

Motivation you say? 110%. This is all for me. It's an egotistical action - one that I would not have considered have my life been otherwise.

Ah well, a couple of pics of my dog for your enjoyment - she is my biggest enjoyment nowadays - can't wait to give her more of my time :) Look how she's groown:)))

xoxo

All I want for Xmas

.........Is time! Time to enjoy it!!!

Over the last couple of years I ve thought that Xmas has been too much. It's just too much people that needs to be caught up with, too  much food on the table, too much stress all in all.

This year. I have 3 plans: 24-25-26th is all about family. :)

The rest of it I will spend just hanging. No plans. Everything will be done ad hoc. I can't wait:)

Repetitiveness!

Hello World.

Stage 3 outta 4. Yes! I have categorized it in stages! Like I do with everything :) Analysis. I've had some days off work to do my research. And now i need to analyze. Am doing a 3day focused thing. Just having a break now. We're talking 2,5 weeks now until I hand in my thesis. And then I'll get back to....LIFE :D

Here are my days nowadays:
8 am Get up
9 am Work
4.30 pm Home
5 pm Dinner
6 pm Walks with dad and Era
7.30 pm Studies
2am Sleep

On weekends i do some social stuff, but it usually involves Era, as she needs impulses and input. The pup is happy, but I know I'll be able to do oh so much more for her when things calm down around me eventually.

Sooooo close now:))))))))
Have a great w/e peeps!

CloneStar.

The Only Game

I stumbled across this video tonight...Whilst procrastinating on my thesis...And it awakened some memories. It's the culture I've grown up in. That's a partial picture of my youth...What's your opinion? http://www.dagbladet.no/musikk/blogg/2009/11/torgny-tar-oss-med-pa-ranerfylla/

In the Now

I guess when i do something. i will do it with my heart and with my soul. hadd a bit of a breakthrough today. felt awesome and nice and good:)

I went to my physical therapist for the second time around (remember my bickering about bad health, well i did something about it!). Last time I got home with a bad headache and a bad back and i felt like poo and naucious and poo and bum and shit. So naturally, i was a bit apprehensive about going there this afternoon...But today, i just felt really tired. so i slept for a couple of hours this afternoon. went for a little walk with Era (as i do every day...the highlight of my days nowadays) And i felt really good:) And this evening I did my first science interview. This is the part where it all gets very interesting i reckon. Ive been reading a writing and reading some more...and writing some more...now i get to go out and talk to people and they get to say what they think about my subject. It's gonna be a blast i reckon. can t wait. i m taking 2-3 days off in the upcoming week. It's gonna be real cool i reckon.

If i m being good at studies from now until saturday, i m even gonna go for a tapas night at Annette's place. Annette is an aquaintance, but we ve been hanging out of late, since we both have dogs. I really appreciate new friendships, andd she's a cool and easygoing lass i reckon:)

So what's today's lesson...no, really it s the lesson of the month or something. Live in the now. not for tomorrow, although tomorrow's gonna be great. Not yesterday either. Yesterday is long gone. I need to appreciate my steepy-steep-steep learning curve. And my loving dog. and work as well. It's all maturing processes...synergies...that will mean something in the future...something good, I am laying the foundation bricks of my future today, and i need to start living in it and appreciate it:)

Good night all beautiful souls out there:)

Check!

Just checking in. Just feels good to move one's head away for a little while before going to bed.

Life before bedtime this fall has consisted of the twilight books. Just so that I can move my head away from all studies, and worries and thoughts about how the hell I'm going to fit in all the things I'm supposed to do tomorrow. But I've reached the last of the 4 books. And I don't want to finish is off. Cos it's been such a nice adventure to forget all about the old ordinary every day life....Stephenie Meyer must never stop writing:))))

Today I worked overtime. Until 10 this eve. And until about halv an hour ago (1.30 am) I've just been updating on my studies. I stayed up until 2 in the morning last night as well, and had to get up bright and early for a morning telephone conference at 8 am this morning. Been a tough week so far, and I ve reached approx half of it...........

My body is not complying at all. My upper back, neck and  has gone all haywire, so today i had to see a physiotherapist about it. I'm going to see a specialist for my stomach aches and my head gives me migraines every other day now. I get it. It's my body telling me that I suck for not being very nice to myself stressing around as I have for the last 3 months.

I'm sorry, dear body, but I can't afford to care. I need to land this. December 18th is the magic date. I just need to stay focused until then. After that...It s all about relaxation. I "only" have work to worry about. It will be a piece of cake! And my body will forgive me and love me...then:)

I really can t wait! im so over this project. 2 years I ve been doing this. Aw well.,7 more weeks to go. I ll land it. No worries...

I will stay an eternal optimist, nothing will break me, it will only make me stronger. I will not turn to victim mentality. I will ace this.

All the best:-*

How To Maintain A Positive Attitude

Hello You All :)

Just wanted to share with you a little video. Watched it tonight:) It's a good tool. Watch it once a day, or just how many times needed. Whenever you're angry, sad or just feel bad about something. It was a good lesson to know that being negative is instant, staying positive is not. Becoming and staying positive takes work!!
xxx

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xd8aTtgs33w&feature=related

About getting hurt...

Helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo :)

well. I don't know where to start. And I don't know about it all making sense. I just learnt a little lesson tonight. I was talking to a mate of mine. And he blew me off. He doesn't share the same music taste as I do. Well..I have a very varied music taste - I enjoy jazz, contemporary, loads of commercial stuff, rock, trance...just a lot of different stuff, and his niche is much more in one direction, I guess mostly within the rock genre (he's a musician). He sometimes sends me crap, that I honestly think just hurts my ears, and he thinks it's AWESOME. And today I was in the mood for some classical Norwegian folk music. To me it s so much more than music. Its culture, it reflects the Norwegian way of living, it s about loving the easy things in life, and it makes me feel. Loads of emotions and puts a smile on my face. And he just blew me off, just said: This is crap, and I don't even want to discuss it. At first I was hurt. And then I started contemplating about why it hurt me. And I realised that it was because I never told him about the stuff that he sends me, and I ve just been like: "yeah, oh really how interesting, cool". We worked it out, he is such an honest bloke, which I respect him for, and I told him, I wasn't going to continue being polite about it. He said, fair enough, most definitely, why should you put up with stuff that you don't like. And he is so right:))))) Honesty is key. And chosing how you feel about stuff is important. I love that I learnt that I'm actually chosing to shut up of fear of hurting someone and that goes beyond respecting myself in the midst of it. I leave myself completely open and chose not to respect myself and letting people put all sorts of crap my way without me setting a boundary. It's so much bigger than this discussion that I had tonight. From now on I need to focus on communicating when I think people are behaving like crap, and just stop tolerating and not saying anything in fear of hurting their feelings. It will take time, but am becoming more and more aware of it.

It's a good thing.

xxx

Enter the bubble.......

Back in the good ol' student bubble I am. Now a little further on and with more adult responsibilities. Full time job and higher academic expectations trying to finish off a master thesis. Finding myself in creating expectations for everyone around me and at the same time back to feeling completely overwhelmed with the huge processes going down with work and school. I guess this is part of life. But I'm not at my best when overwhelmed. Could be better. I can't help but turning to victim directed thoughts, feeling that it is unfair and that I just need a break. Thing is, if I hang in there, a break will come. And also, a sense of achievement, most definitely :))) I just wish it was yesterday......Ah well, another little break just to update status quo and to think of other things than academia. Weekend will be spent studying. And i just need to suck it up!!!

Later peeps.

Today!

Today is the day!

It's a cliche, but it's true. Your life starts now. And as I am looking at my big pile of books and thinking: LoneStar. Get your shit together!! ...I cant help to just wonder what is really stopping me...? Is it the fear of me being this close to the end of it all? Cos i am......very close...December 18th. That s the end date. That s when I will hand in my master thesis...And be done with the whole thing. Is it the fear of failing the whole thing? Is it just laziness? Whatever it is it is something that has negativity attached to it. And that shits me. I have a friend who is so focused on being positive about all aspects of her life. She s a doer. Like really, whatever she wants she gets, and she has the best outlook on life. Well i m sure she has her things that dont always go her way, or that some negative thought actually pierces through her mind from time to time. But...She always does well. I admire her so.

I know one thing, when it comes it will come. with full strength. And I also know that I should most definitely stop punishing myself with a bad conscience. All in all I ve come to realise that feeling bad about just about everything is my worst enemy. it is the antidote to being an enabler...a doer...that s for sure.

So what s my lesson? No lesson really...just a need to ventilate i guess. My life is going on, right now as we speak. I m about to get to bed, and that s a part of life. life and time...hand in hand...Tomorrow is another day at work. Cant wait to go to Trondheim. Heading off the day after tomorrow. Meeting up with some good friends and some family. Celebrating a wedding and just having a generally good time:)))

Will see if i don t join some mates at the uni in trondheim, to kickstart my MBA thesis and to get some valuable academic input. can t wait to be stimulated in that sense...lol...

Lata.xx

25 random things about me

About 7 months ago I wrote this in my facebook notes. I love it, and it is so me, and I want to share it with you guys as well. One of my dreams have already come true (number 25), and I am kinda proud of this one :) The plan further on is to go more into detail on a selection of the points. Enjoy...hehe:)


25 random things about me

Tuesday, February 10, 2009 at 2:45pm
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose which friends that you want to learn 25 random things about and tag them. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

1. I have one tattoo. It is in Chinese signs and mean "Lone". Lone (said in chinese: Långleeeee) also means dragon in chinese. Whilst getting my tattoo I was accompanied by my good chinese friend Hing - as we were about half done with the tattoo - Hinga said: Uh-Oh..... I'm not gonna tell u anything more than that HAHA.

2. I often think about all the mates I have around the world and how I'd like for them all to be at the same old folks home with me sharing our great memories and just enjoying the autumn of our lives together and getting up to all sorts of mischief - I still haven't come up with a solution how to gather them all in the same place.

3. My firstborn girl will be named Adeleide, if I get one. My great great grandma's name was Adeleide, and I've spent three wonderful years of my life in Adelaide Australia.

4. I've quit smoking a couple of times - every time I've needed like 12 hours of sleep a day, which I don't have time for honestly. Misunderstand me right - I will be smokefree!!

5. There is a video of me out on youtube. Karaoke. Say no more (thanks crazy best-mate Carina).

6. I turned 18 a few years back - but I never got older...

7. My dreams can sometimes be very vivid. So vivid that I once saw a neurologist for it. Most probably, my condition is a form of narcolepsia.

8. My dad only has one hand. When I was young I thought all dads only had one hand. In addition, my dad is the coolest person I know.

9. There is always a song churning in the back of my head. I bless myself for not having voices lol. Right now: All this time, by the artist Maria Mena (however usually it's something that Ed Kowalchyk has written)

10. I still honestly believe that I will become famous one day - I hope it will be for something really ingenious that I did, or through my talents and skills.

11. When I was very very young, I used to tell everyone that I was born in the police station.

12. I once ripped a piece of hair out of a man's nose while on a date, honestly believing that it was on the tip of his nose...and loose...But it wasn't. To the surprise of no one - I never saw him again XD

13. If everything goes as planned - I can title my business card Lone Olsen Mba. by the end of 09. During my studies I've taken a course in finance and investment theory - and I therefore believe I can understand why the world is now in a financial crisis - cos they don't know what the hell they're doing.

14. I'm honestly considering becoming a buddhist.

15. I believe in fate. I believe that all people I meet, are there for a reason and that they are supposed to teach me something that I can use for future purpose. I also believe that the experience of a deja vu is like a "check point", telling me that I am in the right place at the right time. Believing this is a great source of comfort to me.

16. I prefer to watch horror movies mostly. But not with people that are easily scared, cos then they get way scarier to watch. Most horror movies I've actually watched by myself, in the middle of the night-here in my dark cellar apartment. I love it!

17. I avoid watching the evening news. There are so few good - and so many bad news. I'm scared I will stop believe in the good of mankind if I watch the news. My ultimate dream is world peace.

18. My bloodtype is B+, only 8% of the population has this bloodtype in Norway. I can also do this trick with my tongue folding it in three. I've only met 1 other person that can actually do the same thing!

19. I usually always have the ability of telling where north is. I don't know how. On the other hand - I bought myself a dvd-player a month ago and I can't get it working cos I have no idea where to put the different pluggythingys. Electronics, electricity and stuff that needs to be put together is to me one of live's biggest mysteries. I only just learnt to understand what an engineer really does for a living.

20. I love all types of humor. There is probably nothing or no situation I can find not to be funny. The best thing in the world to me is when someone shows their own type of silly or funny side. Pompous and self-righteous people exhaust me. I pride myself in being in a good mood most of the time and spreading happiness and laughter around me - but I sometimes may have a bad morning. Mostly monday mornings.

21. I'm really scared of politicians. They are to me the scariest race of people in this world.

22. I'm a good singer, but have terrible stage-fright. I once went to an audition. My throat shut down.

23. I don't want a boyfriend at the moment. My focus is now on career and studies. The precious little spare time I have I spend with my good friends and awesomely cool family. The hassle, insecurities, expectations and different accommodations one has to do in one's life with a significant other is not worth getting into at the moment -as it steals so much energy and resources away from the other ambitions that I've made for myself. Mind you, I have vicariously picked a date in the future in which project boyfriend will start. At the present date it's far away, and it's almost scary how comfortable I am with my decision - and how much happier I am now with myself and my life. :-O

24. In the back of my mind, a new process of a great business plan has arrived of late. I would love to see it through one day. Obviously, it's a secret. However I can't wait to one day soon sharing it with my friends.

25. I seriously really want a dog. I know this is not the right time to get one. But I'm considering it, and I have been considering it for such a long time. It would be the best companion. And I know I was definitely meant to have a dog in my life.

Summer in Lofoten 2009

Love and such

Hello Again:)

I'm trying to be a good blogger. What if i put this into my routine every night before i go to bed? lol...Let's not get carried away by great ambitions, however never forget the good intentions ;)

I want to share those things that are important to me at the moment and the things that I've learnt as the days pass by.

Now this morning i woke up with a great big smile on my face....Actually the last three weeks that's all I've been doing every morning....It's not some fabulous hot guy who keeps me happy. It's a brown little thing with a wiggly tale that celebrates my awakening every morning. It's so simple but oh so efficient!!! I've been so focused on career the last two or so years and now this little animal is in my life making it so much better. Even as I'm writing this I've got the little bundle by my side. From time to time she opens her eyes to see if I'm still here, and then she goes to sleep again. Soundly and peacefully. She teaches me every day about the simple joys in life and it enforces my belief that love should be simple and unconditional.

Love is vital for the wellbeing of all of us. Fear will be the only thing that gets in its way. Choice is something that humans will always have, and I chose to love. Love my family, love my friends and love all the little beautiful and simple things in life.

That's a great lesson for one day, right?

Mind you. Need my sleep. The apartment needs cleaning and I have to get up early to make a salad for tomorrow. Midsummer celebrations. Big BBQ and and a family gathering. If I get some good shots I hope to share them with you :)

xoxo Lone*

Ahead of my time.....

Yes, I was very much ahead of my time in 06 when writing a blog. It all hadn't really "taken off" just yet... Now, everyone is doing it. And it is a fabulous way of keeping everybody up to speed on what's going on in ones life.





Facebook is also a fab way of keepin everybody up to speed on stuff. But i guess a blog provides a bit more in depth information about things. So you gotta love it.





What's been up? Well, how do I say it without using hours to get you all up to speed...over the last 2, 5 years?





- I'm now managing the local tourist information office, matches with my education and my passion for Lofoten


- I've finished off all my exams and getting ready to start writing my master thesis, hoping to finish off my MBA by the end of 2009


- I've just bought myself a little puppy dog. Her name is Era and she is a pretty little girlie

And well...I'm still alive and kicking. Just turned 28 and I guess I've become a few years wiser at least...Still feel young and vital and all that

Ah well. I'm hoping that I'll get to share many new memories and experiences with you as I throw myself into this all-exciting thing called life.

*Good to be back*

xoxo Lone*