Today!

Today is the day!

It's a cliche, but it's true. Your life starts now. And as I am looking at my big pile of books and thinking: LoneStar. Get your shit together!! ...I cant help to just wonder what is really stopping me...? Is it the fear of me being this close to the end of it all? Cos i am......very close...December 18th. That s the end date. That s when I will hand in my master thesis...And be done with the whole thing. Is it the fear of failing the whole thing? Is it just laziness? Whatever it is it is something that has negativity attached to it. And that shits me. I have a friend who is so focused on being positive about all aspects of her life. She s a doer. Like really, whatever she wants she gets, and she has the best outlook on life. Well i m sure she has her things that dont always go her way, or that some negative thought actually pierces through her mind from time to time. But...She always does well. I admire her so.

I know one thing, when it comes it will come. with full strength. And I also know that I should most definitely stop punishing myself with a bad conscience. All in all I ve come to realise that feeling bad about just about everything is my worst enemy. it is the antidote to being an enabler...a doer...that s for sure.

So what s my lesson? No lesson really...just a need to ventilate i guess. My life is going on, right now as we speak. I m about to get to bed, and that s a part of life. life and time...hand in hand...Tomorrow is another day at work. Cant wait to go to Trondheim. Heading off the day after tomorrow. Meeting up with some good friends and some family. Celebrating a wedding and just having a generally good time:)))

Will see if i don t join some mates at the uni in trondheim, to kickstart my MBA thesis and to get some valuable academic input. can t wait to be stimulated in that sense...lol...

Lata.xx