Hello fellow bloggers and other readers of my blog :)
I don't know how many actually go through my blog - after a good while writing, I have close to 700 hits.
I love it if people, especially my loved ones, are reading it. But mostly it is an act of the ego - just like others write a journal or diary, I share my thoughts in this way.
Right now I am feeling the need to summarize..... I guess that is not an unnatural act seeking to make up accounts for what has actually happened this year - so here goes:
2010 was the year that...
....We had a total lunar eclipse (today on this darkest day of the year) - red moon :O
.... My dog learnt to "high five"
.... Liu Xiaobo got the Nobel's peace price for his work for human rights in China
.... I fell in love happily for the first time of my life
.... Scarlett Johansson and Ryan Reynolds separated
.... I bought a new flash (at least i think so....) car
.... An elk/moose visited my door step in my new house...So much closer to the wilderness! (And my 12 pound/6kilo dog jumped like a gazelle chasing this 750lb/350k heavy animal L O L)
.... Norway historically won the European handball championships for the 4th time in a row (YAY)
.... I spent 4 wonderful months with my beautiful Australian friend, rediscovering Lofoten, climbing mountains and hills, talking about life's realities and dreams of the mind, as well as teaching about the Norwegian style of life through cooking and traditions
.... I went traveling to France, Oslo (3 times) and Tromsø
.... No peace in the world was accomplished
.... I loved my family and good friends even more than ever
.... World hunger was still and issue
.... I worked in a service station over the weekends and loved it
.... I still realised that Lofoten is my first and biggest love in Life
.... Bieber Fever
.... Environmental issues was still imminent
.... A year where I worked hard and experienced progress and development through my professional life.
- Merry christmas everyone - I hope it is a peaceful and eventful time where you are surrounded by love and happiness - <3
My Life here in beautiful Lofoten.... Life in general, in pieces, and in bits. I hope to colour your world with my thoughts and I hope to share my world with my loved ones...I guess my focus is both micro and macro oriented...and all in all i think that Love conquers all barriers...
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
Blue Purple Lofo Bathing In Colours
Inevitably. It is getting darker again. However. We've been blessed with easterly quiet winds, bringing us stable beautiful weather.
I'm taking a look outside and the sky is purple, blue, pink....The tip of "himmeltinden" (a mountain - 1000 meters above sea level) is a bright orange, indicating that the sun is on its way above the horizon. It's like the sun is struggling with all its might to lighten up these beautiful landscapes - but hardly cannot manage. We've been placed by someone a bit too far north to be able to have the light that this insane scenery deserves.
The degree celcius measures close to a minus 10 and we've been draped in white. This definitely brightens our day - where November usually is quite black. The magic colours of blue remind me of the everchanging colours of blue that I experienced in Hawaii - only even more differentiated. I hereby conclude, the light of winter is even more breathtaking than the midnight sun lights of summer.
Here is a photo taken just outside my house - by the great photographer Anita Dyer <3
I'm taking a look outside and the sky is purple, blue, pink....The tip of "himmeltinden" (a mountain - 1000 meters above sea level) is a bright orange, indicating that the sun is on its way above the horizon. It's like the sun is struggling with all its might to lighten up these beautiful landscapes - but hardly cannot manage. We've been placed by someone a bit too far north to be able to have the light that this insane scenery deserves.
The degree celcius measures close to a minus 10 and we've been draped in white. This definitely brightens our day - where November usually is quite black. The magic colours of blue remind me of the everchanging colours of blue that I experienced in Hawaii - only even more differentiated. I hereby conclude, the light of winter is even more breathtaking than the midnight sun lights of summer.
Here is a photo taken just outside my house - by the great photographer Anita Dyer <3
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Bar Bar
Oh how blessed I am.
Thank you for your visit Anita. It has been some crazy 4 months and 2010 will forever be "our" year!!! :))
Neitz is one of those unique souls that I feel so blessed to be able to have in my life. She came in on a boat like a whirl wind in June..... Her honesty and her sense of humour as well as her immense sympathetic, intellectual, social and empathetic intelligence has enriched me in ways I have yet to comprehend.
Life changing talks have gone down, beautiful spiritual nature experiences and a lot of good memories is what I get to look back at. Thank you friend. See you in Thailand soon :))))))))))))))
Thank you for your visit Anita. It has been some crazy 4 months and 2010 will forever be "our" year!!! :))
Neitz is one of those unique souls that I feel so blessed to be able to have in my life. She came in on a boat like a whirl wind in June..... Her honesty and her sense of humour as well as her immense sympathetic, intellectual, social and empathetic intelligence has enriched me in ways I have yet to comprehend.
Life changing talks have gone down, beautiful spiritual nature experiences and a lot of good memories is what I get to look back at. Thank you friend. See you in Thailand soon :))))))))))))))
Thursday, November 18, 2010
20 things I had wished i had known at 20
This is taken from a fellow blogger. I cannot find the source - but my friend sent it to me, and i aspire for these to be myguidelines in everyday life -
1. Consider the source, if you're worried about someone who dislikes you, first ask yourself whether they're an asshole. If you don t like them and they don t like you, thats not a problem, thats a mutual understanding
2. Get off the couch, if you find yourself playing hard to get, don't pretend to be busy, just be busy.
3. Don't waste your time. If you have to play hard to get, move on. You'll know when you've found a healthy relationship because it wont confuse you.
4. When in doubt, shut up. Silence is a smart negotiation tactic, the best option when you're processing how to respond, and always more productive than lying about what you're thinking.
5. Don't complain. Maybe venting makes you feel better, but letting of steam can also lull you into maintaining the status quo. Unfortunately the status quo is pissing you off, which is why you're whining in the first place. You're frustrated, turn that energy toward fixing your problems, not bitching about them.
6. Don't obsess. Worrying is complaints ugly cousin. Either use that energy to change your situation or just relax.
7. Find an age appropriate style. No one wants to see a 20 year old in beige slacks and a wool blazer. Buy trendy clothes, wear the slutty dress, do something ugly with your hair. Be part of your generation, so that you can laugh at the photos later.
8. Be polite. It keeps doors open, lessens the potential for misunderstandings and increases the odds of getting invited back to the beach house.
9. But defend your boundaries. When someone isn't taking no for an answer. Clarify what you want and the respond forcefully. Being polite to someone who isn't hearing you is naive.
10. You look good. Theres no such thing as the hottest person in the room. Everyone is attracted to something different, so just take those odds and run with them.
11. Being nice is overrated. In fact, "nice" is the least interesting thing someone can say about you.
12. Keep it to yourself. "She seems nice" is an excellent thing to say about someone you dont like. Particularly in the company of people you dont know.
13. Know your audience. When you're telling a story and someone interrups you, let them.
14. Let your passion shape your profession. You know that thing your dad says? "If work wasn't hard, they wouldn't pay you to do it." PLEASE. There are professional rock stars, astronauts, puppy trainers and bloggers.
15. Sex is personal. Don't bother with one-night stands if they're not your thing. And don't judge people for enjoying them (or not). Waiting to sleep with someone doesnt make you an uptight prude, and jumping into bed doesn't make you a spontaneous adventure seeker.
16. Focus. The saying "what you're thinking about is what you're becoming" isn't just chilling, it's a universal law. Be aware of how you're investing your attention - including your words and your actions.
17. Cut yourself a break. Don't offer a running commentary on your own faults. When you do, the people around you listen. Give yourself space to change your character.
18. Don't be intimidated. Word travelers are just people who bought plane tickets. Pulitzer prize winners are people who sit alone and write. You can break the most profound accomplishment down to a series of mundane tasks.
19. Choose good company. Ask yourself if a person makes you better og drains your life force. If the answer is B, youre busy next time they call. And the time after that.
20. Enjoy your body. Odds are you're more beautiful now than you will be again.
1. Consider the source, if you're worried about someone who dislikes you, first ask yourself whether they're an asshole. If you don t like them and they don t like you, thats not a problem, thats a mutual understanding
2. Get off the couch, if you find yourself playing hard to get, don't pretend to be busy, just be busy.
3. Don't waste your time. If you have to play hard to get, move on. You'll know when you've found a healthy relationship because it wont confuse you.
4. When in doubt, shut up. Silence is a smart negotiation tactic, the best option when you're processing how to respond, and always more productive than lying about what you're thinking.
5. Don't complain. Maybe venting makes you feel better, but letting of steam can also lull you into maintaining the status quo. Unfortunately the status quo is pissing you off, which is why you're whining in the first place. You're frustrated, turn that energy toward fixing your problems, not bitching about them.
6. Don't obsess. Worrying is complaints ugly cousin. Either use that energy to change your situation or just relax.
7. Find an age appropriate style. No one wants to see a 20 year old in beige slacks and a wool blazer. Buy trendy clothes, wear the slutty dress, do something ugly with your hair. Be part of your generation, so that you can laugh at the photos later.
8. Be polite. It keeps doors open, lessens the potential for misunderstandings and increases the odds of getting invited back to the beach house.
9. But defend your boundaries. When someone isn't taking no for an answer. Clarify what you want and the respond forcefully. Being polite to someone who isn't hearing you is naive.
10. You look good. Theres no such thing as the hottest person in the room. Everyone is attracted to something different, so just take those odds and run with them.
11. Being nice is overrated. In fact, "nice" is the least interesting thing someone can say about you.
12. Keep it to yourself. "She seems nice" is an excellent thing to say about someone you dont like. Particularly in the company of people you dont know.
13. Know your audience. When you're telling a story and someone interrups you, let them.
14. Let your passion shape your profession. You know that thing your dad says? "If work wasn't hard, they wouldn't pay you to do it." PLEASE. There are professional rock stars, astronauts, puppy trainers and bloggers.
15. Sex is personal. Don't bother with one-night stands if they're not your thing. And don't judge people for enjoying them (or not). Waiting to sleep with someone doesnt make you an uptight prude, and jumping into bed doesn't make you a spontaneous adventure seeker.
16. Focus. The saying "what you're thinking about is what you're becoming" isn't just chilling, it's a universal law. Be aware of how you're investing your attention - including your words and your actions.
17. Cut yourself a break. Don't offer a running commentary on your own faults. When you do, the people around you listen. Give yourself space to change your character.
18. Don't be intimidated. Word travelers are just people who bought plane tickets. Pulitzer prize winners are people who sit alone and write. You can break the most profound accomplishment down to a series of mundane tasks.
19. Choose good company. Ask yourself if a person makes you better og drains your life force. If the answer is B, youre busy next time they call. And the time after that.
20. Enjoy your body. Odds are you're more beautiful now than you will be again.
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
.....I love fall time........
Autumn is my favourite time of year :)))))))))))))))))))))))
I luuuurve autumn. It s so pretty!!!
This is me during autum:
The colours...the crisp and clear air, life is just grand...
HOWEVER. This is autumn 2010:
I luuuurve autumn. It s so pretty!!!
This is me during autum:
The colours...the crisp and clear air, life is just grand...
HOWEVER. This is autumn 2010:
Doesn t matter - gives me the christmas spirit quicker!!! :) AND I LUUURVE XMAS :)))))
Monday, November 08, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Some images from my life
Finally, some pictures as well - not only text. :) A few pictures from my life of the year 2010 with my good friends as well as my beautiful little Era :))))))))))))
Morning face:
We were supposed to look angry:
My dog the demon:
My dog the angel:
Purrrrrr:
Celebrating the hand-in of my master thesis with beautiful Kristin:
My dog broke loose:
Trying to look 14 again...:
Friends:
Cuuuuuuuuute:
My best friend and me:
Dinner in Oslo:
Something obviously is very funny....:
All the pretty girls....:
My best Anette and me:
My previous roommate and me, we re NUTS:
Morning face:
Friday, October 15, 2010
My Class Of 92
:D
How To Deal With Life s Insecurities...
...I read self help books.
I don t believe in anything other than help of the self through effort of self.
Internal and cognitive challenges in a mind working 100% properly and healthily, ultimately will only heal through self help.
That does not mean that we dont need guidance to find solutions. There are many many tools for guidance: Friends, family, partners, psychologists, coaches and SELF HELP BOOKS :D Even the man on the street, or a random conversation through a colleague can provoke new thoughts about a challenge one is struggling with, even a solution. The highest barrier for not finding a solution? Victim mentality.
Victim mentality means that you are a victim of whatever happens to you. It is never your fault - and you never take charge, or responsibility for the things that get you down, or that you feel is working against you. Feeling helpless and not able to affect something that is keeping you sad or frustrated is sometimes simpler than doing the inner work or taking action to make things better, I feel. To be honest I have filtered out the people that have this type of way of looking at things. I never do it straight away - it is when i realise that whatever i do to help this person, things will never ever get better before this person decides to do the actions necessary to create change.....That is the moment i decide i cannot have this person in my life.
Do you think i am in the wrong for having made that decision?
Solution seekers are the heroes of society, and operative action - and changemakers are my mentors, and the people i choose to admire.
Tips for good reads? Paulo Coelho - "The alchemist" is a great place to start. Louise Hay is good too. She sometimes - to me - is experienced as a bit too much in a sense that her life view is very spiritual - but her thoughts on life and her miracle stories always inspire me. Hay House (Louise Hays publishing business) has a lot of good books too.
Some thoughts for now :)
xoxo.
I don t believe in anything other than help of the self through effort of self.
Internal and cognitive challenges in a mind working 100% properly and healthily, ultimately will only heal through self help.
That does not mean that we dont need guidance to find solutions. There are many many tools for guidance: Friends, family, partners, psychologists, coaches and SELF HELP BOOKS :D Even the man on the street, or a random conversation through a colleague can provoke new thoughts about a challenge one is struggling with, even a solution. The highest barrier for not finding a solution? Victim mentality.
Victim mentality means that you are a victim of whatever happens to you. It is never your fault - and you never take charge, or responsibility for the things that get you down, or that you feel is working against you. Feeling helpless and not able to affect something that is keeping you sad or frustrated is sometimes simpler than doing the inner work or taking action to make things better, I feel. To be honest I have filtered out the people that have this type of way of looking at things. I never do it straight away - it is when i realise that whatever i do to help this person, things will never ever get better before this person decides to do the actions necessary to create change.....That is the moment i decide i cannot have this person in my life.
Do you think i am in the wrong for having made that decision?
Solution seekers are the heroes of society, and operative action - and changemakers are my mentors, and the people i choose to admire.
Tips for good reads? Paulo Coelho - "The alchemist" is a great place to start. Louise Hay is good too. She sometimes - to me - is experienced as a bit too much in a sense that her life view is very spiritual - but her thoughts on life and her miracle stories always inspire me. Hay House (Louise Hays publishing business) has a lot of good books too.
Some thoughts for now :)
xoxo.
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
Questions about drugs
In this day and age. There are so many people that choose to use drugs. I never did and I probably never will do. I ve always been open to listening to the experience through others but it has never been a question about using it myself.
At the same time - i ve had a load of friends who have used drugs. For some reason i have always been shielded from it tho. I dont know, maybe they do not think its for me. Maybe i am marked as "too innocent".... I don t know.
At the same time I am curious to find out how people get into using drugs. I can t put myself in that situation - ive never been in it - and honestly i am way too scared to ever try it myself. What am i scared about? Never asked myself the question really, just don t think it would do me any good basically. And today i am really thankful for that fear. Knowing people who have already used drugs i realise that it is mind altering in so many ways. some people take years to get their full ability back in terms of their emotional life as well as certain intellectual abilities...Short term and long term memory loss and so forth...
My point is, what makes you do it in the first place???? And what would you wish could have stopped you from doing it???? I want to know this. At some point i will be having kids - and i want to make sure they never ever try them....Just like me :)
At the same time - i ve had a load of friends who have used drugs. For some reason i have always been shielded from it tho. I dont know, maybe they do not think its for me. Maybe i am marked as "too innocent".... I don t know.
At the same time I am curious to find out how people get into using drugs. I can t put myself in that situation - ive never been in it - and honestly i am way too scared to ever try it myself. What am i scared about? Never asked myself the question really, just don t think it would do me any good basically. And today i am really thankful for that fear. Knowing people who have already used drugs i realise that it is mind altering in so many ways. some people take years to get their full ability back in terms of their emotional life as well as certain intellectual abilities...Short term and long term memory loss and so forth...
My point is, what makes you do it in the first place???? And what would you wish could have stopped you from doing it???? I want to know this. At some point i will be having kids - and i want to make sure they never ever try them....Just like me :)
Friday, October 01, 2010
Octopusober
Seems like October will come and go in the same draw of breath........
Finally a little upturn with a great work load - a safe feeling and more work over the weekends...lol!
I mean it! I need it! The only thing standing in my way now is the energy. With hypotherosis it is hard to find the right amount of tyroxine that will keep my energy levels stabilized.
Now. I am about to start my weekend. Will be working at the service station over the weekend. I love people - it ll be great. I ll close up the shop tonight - haven t done it in a few years and is excited to see how it will all come together - it s like bicycling i keep telling myself.
Autumn is definitely in the air - with a crisper and fresher air and colorful landscapes surrounding us :)) It is so beautiful.......I have no words - it is almost like i am on a higher spiritual level when surrounded by such bauty!
I hope to get to take some photos over the weekend to share here on my site.
But now I have to run - boyfriend is waiting - we re eating take away today - what a treat!!!
And a beautiful weekend to you all <3
Finally a little upturn with a great work load - a safe feeling and more work over the weekends...lol!
I mean it! I need it! The only thing standing in my way now is the energy. With hypotherosis it is hard to find the right amount of tyroxine that will keep my energy levels stabilized.
Now. I am about to start my weekend. Will be working at the service station over the weekend. I love people - it ll be great. I ll close up the shop tonight - haven t done it in a few years and is excited to see how it will all come together - it s like bicycling i keep telling myself.
Autumn is definitely in the air - with a crisper and fresher air and colorful landscapes surrounding us :)) It is so beautiful.......I have no words - it is almost like i am on a higher spiritual level when surrounded by such bauty!
I hope to get to take some photos over the weekend to share here on my site.
But now I have to run - boyfriend is waiting - we re eating take away today - what a treat!!!
And a beautiful weekend to you all <3
Monday, September 27, 2010
Problem Focused?
I dont know.
What s the ultimate balance? I attended a conference last week. Well actually i arranged it too..hehe. But I also attended. And the scientists on the podium talked about the environment and the climate. They talked about what could happen to the oceans within the next 50 years.....
There are problems ahead. A lot of them too.
Within the next 20 years we are hitting a small ice age. The temperatures are going down. Fair enough. I can handle that.
Then there is the big crappy downturn. The temperatures are going up - quickly and a lot! Which means that if I dont die before "my time" i get to see the world going under. And my kids will have to struggle on to survive. Because i am not competent in this area...not competent enough to see the consequences - it is left to my imagination - and it is not looking good. It is pretty fucked to be honest.
Now. What is the solution? Where is the solution focus? Does it dissapear in the problem focused perspective of things. What will happen? Mankind has been able to adapt to all changes of the last 10 000 or so years. So what will happen??? Is this the end of man and womankind?
I dont know. I know that this is too big for me, the one person. But it hits home. My next blog will probably again be about my every day life - I will "forget" about this problem. I guess i can t focus on it over a longer period of time - i ll probably die worrying....Hey then my worries and problems are solved :))
What s the ultimate balance? I attended a conference last week. Well actually i arranged it too..hehe. But I also attended. And the scientists on the podium talked about the environment and the climate. They talked about what could happen to the oceans within the next 50 years.....
There are problems ahead. A lot of them too.
Within the next 20 years we are hitting a small ice age. The temperatures are going down. Fair enough. I can handle that.
Then there is the big crappy downturn. The temperatures are going up - quickly and a lot! Which means that if I dont die before "my time" i get to see the world going under. And my kids will have to struggle on to survive. Because i am not competent in this area...not competent enough to see the consequences - it is left to my imagination - and it is not looking good. It is pretty fucked to be honest.
Now. What is the solution? Where is the solution focus? Does it dissapear in the problem focused perspective of things. What will happen? Mankind has been able to adapt to all changes of the last 10 000 or so years. So what will happen??? Is this the end of man and womankind?
I dont know. I know that this is too big for me, the one person. But it hits home. My next blog will probably again be about my every day life - I will "forget" about this problem. I guess i can t focus on it over a longer period of time - i ll probably die worrying....Hey then my worries and problems are solved :))
Monday, September 20, 2010
Lyrics that touches your soul
Hey now. Do you have a song that really just hits home? Lyrics that you just love? Lyrics that have touched you in a special way or that has done immense changes in the way you perceive life? I just had that experience - I have the from time to time - it s bloody wonderful :))))
Let me share it with you - and please - share yours if you have any? <3
Dire Straits - Brothers In Arms
These mist covered mountains
Are a home now for me
But my home is the lowlands
And always will be
Some day you'll return to
Your valleys and your farms
And you'll no longer burn
To be brothers in arms
Through these fields of destruction
Baptisms of fire
I've witnessed your suffering
As the battles raged higher
And though they hurt me so bad
In the fear and alarm
You did not desert me
My brothers in arms
There's so many different worlds
So many different suns
And we have just one world
But we live in different ones
Now the sun's gone to hell
And the moon's riding high
Let me bid you farewell
Every man has to die
But it's written in the starlight
And every line on your palm
We're fools to make war
On our brothers in arms
Let me share it with you - and please - share yours if you have any? <3
Dire Straits - Brothers In Arms
These mist covered mountains
Are a home now for me
But my home is the lowlands
And always will be
Some day you'll return to
Your valleys and your farms
And you'll no longer burn
To be brothers in arms
Through these fields of destruction
Baptisms of fire
I've witnessed your suffering
As the battles raged higher
And though they hurt me so bad
In the fear and alarm
You did not desert me
My brothers in arms
There's so many different worlds
So many different suns
And we have just one world
But we live in different ones
Now the sun's gone to hell
And the moon's riding high
Let me bid you farewell
Every man has to die
But it's written in the starlight
And every line on your palm
We're fools to make war
On our brothers in arms
Monday, September 13, 2010
Comments Comments Comments
Hey there!
Ive changed my blog a bit - now it is possible for everyone - with or without a google account to comment on my blog. I WANT COMMENTS GODDAMNIT :D
Ive changed my blog a bit - now it is possible for everyone - with or without a google account to comment on my blog. I WANT COMMENTS GODDAMNIT :D
Thursday, September 09, 2010
OverWhelMed
Hello Y all!!!!!!!!!!!
WOWOWOW!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah. 2 days in a row. It is impressive. Im impressed. Of me.
Im so back in HR now. I feel it in my every bone. It is so interesting!! It is so engaging too. I have such big tasks ahead and I am really happy and pleased.
I now remember that I havent told my faithful viewers about my project. I had a big project going on. A randomly picked date would set out the start of my new adventure. "PROJECT BOYFRIEND".
The history behind is really the most interesting and i have my inspiration from a friend of mine whom i have unfortunately lost contact with.
She is 2 years my senior and decided to do this project for her self - unfortunately her project didn t work out the way she planned as it was "killed" before it even started. And the same thing happened to me.......I met my boyfriend just before xmas. The concept is that when project boyfriend starts you do all in your might to put yourself out there. You set out to meet the man of your life and through every possible media. Internet, friends, dating organisations and wherever you move in your realm. Also - it is important that you make it you full time project and that you are honest to yourself and aware that you are looking for that special someone - no illusions and clarity in what you are actually looking for. HOWEVER! The real interesting thing is the time before you actually decide to launch your project. I gave myself 18 months to think about me - and only me. I did the exact opposite of what you do in "Project Boyfriend". I thought about the things i wanted to do and see and be. I thought about what I needed and what made me me and through this i discovered more and more what kind of person I am. I had such personal growth in this time and I learnt how to take care of myself. In this time - the rule is to NOT look for anyone. Just to have fun and to be with you loved ones and to enjoy life as a single person with no commitment but to yourself. After all - when you meet that special someone you go halves and compromise and have to take care of that other person in the same way as you take care of yourself. NOW. I would actually love for someone single out there to go through those stages. God it was so enlightening for me - and it is such an interesting project!!! :)))) Please let me know it you are inspired to do the same. I would love to give you guidance :))))
Good Luck!!
WOWOWOW!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah. 2 days in a row. It is impressive. Im impressed. Of me.
Im so back in HR now. I feel it in my every bone. It is so interesting!! It is so engaging too. I have such big tasks ahead and I am really happy and pleased.
I now remember that I havent told my faithful viewers about my project. I had a big project going on. A randomly picked date would set out the start of my new adventure. "PROJECT BOYFRIEND".
The history behind is really the most interesting and i have my inspiration from a friend of mine whom i have unfortunately lost contact with.
She is 2 years my senior and decided to do this project for her self - unfortunately her project didn t work out the way she planned as it was "killed" before it even started. And the same thing happened to me.......I met my boyfriend just before xmas. The concept is that when project boyfriend starts you do all in your might to put yourself out there. You set out to meet the man of your life and through every possible media. Internet, friends, dating organisations and wherever you move in your realm. Also - it is important that you make it you full time project and that you are honest to yourself and aware that you are looking for that special someone - no illusions and clarity in what you are actually looking for. HOWEVER! The real interesting thing is the time before you actually decide to launch your project. I gave myself 18 months to think about me - and only me. I did the exact opposite of what you do in "Project Boyfriend". I thought about the things i wanted to do and see and be. I thought about what I needed and what made me me and through this i discovered more and more what kind of person I am. I had such personal growth in this time and I learnt how to take care of myself. In this time - the rule is to NOT look for anyone. Just to have fun and to be with you loved ones and to enjoy life as a single person with no commitment but to yourself. After all - when you meet that special someone you go halves and compromise and have to take care of that other person in the same way as you take care of yourself. NOW. I would actually love for someone single out there to go through those stages. God it was so enlightening for me - and it is such an interesting project!!! :)))) Please let me know it you are inspired to do the same. I would love to give you guidance :))))
Good Luck!!
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
Beautiful Times
I guess the 4th grade essay I started writing last time needs a new ending :-O I ll keep it quite simple---
Woman wrote down her essay in her blog...and boy lived on...weeks went by and suddenly boy realised his heart a had a crack. A little one - a teeny weeny one - girl had cracked his heart open. Now there was no way back. Boy realised he was a man, and did what a man should do. He fought to win the woman s heart. And the woman caved. She caved in to a thing she already knew would be beautiful.
The woman and the man lived happily.
I guess i can t write ever after just yet :) Broken hearts need time to mend and burnt hearts will always be burnt. I need time to trust happiness - and i am definitely not ready to trus "ever after".
YAY!
So now it is so. I have a boyfriend. I am happily in love. For the first time in my life.
Summer has come and gone. It was a good one. I spent it with Neitz. And my boyfriend. Mostly. With my little Era as a natural integrated part of it all.
All of my friends are turning 30 this year. Not all of them. But A L O T of them. I ve celebrated 2, and i have 2 more to go to this fall.
Over the summer i ve managed to buy me a new car. I ll take a photo and send it. I ve also bought new glasses...And moved into a house that i now rent...Basically Ive expanded. And therefore I ve also switched jobs. How it all came to happen i don t know. But it happened fast. Very fast. Fast and glorious.
So i m back in HR. I was in HR when i started this blog and now i m back there. I m handling it fine. Day 3 at my office. It has not yet taken off - like totally. I am awaiting many new tasks. It will be exciting to see how it all comes together.
Later Gater
Woman wrote down her essay in her blog...and boy lived on...weeks went by and suddenly boy realised his heart a had a crack. A little one - a teeny weeny one - girl had cracked his heart open. Now there was no way back. Boy realised he was a man, and did what a man should do. He fought to win the woman s heart. And the woman caved. She caved in to a thing she already knew would be beautiful.
The woman and the man lived happily.
I guess i can t write ever after just yet :) Broken hearts need time to mend and burnt hearts will always be burnt. I need time to trust happiness - and i am definitely not ready to trus "ever after".
YAY!
So now it is so. I have a boyfriend. I am happily in love. For the first time in my life.
Summer has come and gone. It was a good one. I spent it with Neitz. And my boyfriend. Mostly. With my little Era as a natural integrated part of it all.
All of my friends are turning 30 this year. Not all of them. But A L O T of them. I ve celebrated 2, and i have 2 more to go to this fall.
Over the summer i ve managed to buy me a new car. I ll take a photo and send it. I ve also bought new glasses...And moved into a house that i now rent...Basically Ive expanded. And therefore I ve also switched jobs. How it all came to happen i don t know. But it happened fast. Very fast. Fast and glorious.
So i m back in HR. I was in HR when i started this blog and now i m back there. I m handling it fine. Day 3 at my office. It has not yet taken off - like totally. I am awaiting many new tasks. It will be exciting to see how it all comes together.
Later Gater
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
I guess its just a fact...
I am a period-blogger. Will never be able to uphold a daily blogg. LoL. :) One thing is the same...I am a blogger of the night.
So what has been happening since the last time around?
Still a manager, still an active dog owner. Still sociable and surrounding myself with quality people.
Might get a roomie over the summer. My old friend from Down Under, Neitz has gotten herself a visa. I've arranged for work for her, and can't wait for her arrival. :)
I just figured out how to make a playlist on youtube!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Excited. Actually Im so excited about just listening to music while at work. btw...Ive moved locations for work. The tourist info is now in the newly built shopping mall in town. It's good for business, and work in general. Heaps more social nowadays at work. But not enough time to get that quietness to focus on the tasks that require my utmost attention...There are good things and bad things I guess.
Summer has arrived. We ve had our first few days when it s been acceptable to only wear a t-shirt and shorts!! Good for my white arse that needs a bit of colouring. Well, pink...at least. Pink is the new tan I've heard....:))
Am planning to settle down a bit more. You know, the whole grown up stuff - new house and all. Can't wait to get it all sorted. Need to get some paper work in place. Tomorrow im planning to go to look at cars :)
Needs to get her beauty sleep i guess. But before I do i will leave you with a bit of an every day story...
There once was a girl. All she wanted was to love a boy. But the boy was not a boy. He was a man. And the girl was not a girl, she had become a woman. But for the sake of the story, lets call them just that - the boy, and the girl.
The surroundings of the way they met is not so innovative. But the boy had long eyed the girl and tried to get in contact... Their first kiss was that of the movies. Sparkles and all. It all seemed to be good with them. Their future looked bright. They were soon in love.
Then the boy had to go away for work. He was away for 2 months. His work was hard, and he was a hard worker. He missed the girl every day. The girl did the same. They soon realised they could not wait for 2 whole months until they were to meet again. But they were so far away from each other.
So the girl spent her savings. She got a plane ticket for the boy and the girl to meet midway. She got a hotel room. So the boy and the girl had a happy reunion. They spent 2 magical days together. Strangers in a strange town. But more in love than ever. And so happy to get to know each other even more.
The future still looked bright. But the boy never paid back his cost of the stay and the travels. This annoyed the girl slightly, but she was still sure things would work out, and assumed that the boy would step up - and be a responsible man soon enough, without the girl having to tell him to be.
Then the boy came back home. Reality of life hit again. Boy still had to work. And girl still missed him more than ever. It seemed boy never had time for her, only work - and his family. The boy was a man, and he had a daughter...And even two little grandchildren. The boy was a man, but a young grand father.
The girl's heart was breaking every day now. She was sad, and lonely. This was strange for the girl. Because the girl was not used to being lonely. When alone the girl was never lonely. But with her heart belonging to the boy and the boy never keeping in contact... The girl felt immense and dark and bottomless loneliness. The girl kept this to herself. The girl did not share this with anybody. The girl was strong she thought.
Then one day, after waiting. And not complaining. And hoping that the love between the girl and the boy would blossom once again. The boy told the girl to stop loving him. She loved him. So she stopped.
The days went by for the girl. And she was sad. But she did not contact the boy. She respected his wishes. Life felt easier, slightly, day by day. Suddenly a week had gone by. And suddenly....A month.
The girl spent more time with her family and friends. She went to a party with an old friend, and down to the pub one day. Suddenly she saw the boy. The boy was wearing the shirt she gave him for his birthday.
The girl's heart ached and started racing. And the boy came towards her. The girl realised that she had missed the boy worse than what she realized. And the reunion was happy. The boy told her that he had missed her and that he had listened a bit too much to what the townsmen had said....And that he had lived a hard life, and that he could never trust a girl again.
The girl realized that she had made an illusion of love around her, and that the boy - whom she thought was a man - was merely a boy. A frightened boy, so frightened that he did not dare to live his life, that he did not dare to catch his dreams of love. And that he would for always be a boy wishing for love, but never able to love a girl wholeheartedly again. A boy wishing to live in his own safe bubble where everything would be foreseeable - and where nobody would ever hurt him.
The girl was sad to see this - but realized that after being able to see this - she had become slightly more of a woman. And she was free - free to find real love with no illusions. It was a happy ending.
The End <3
So what has been happening since the last time around?
Still a manager, still an active dog owner. Still sociable and surrounding myself with quality people.
Might get a roomie over the summer. My old friend from Down Under, Neitz has gotten herself a visa. I've arranged for work for her, and can't wait for her arrival. :)
I just figured out how to make a playlist on youtube!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Excited. Actually Im so excited about just listening to music while at work. btw...Ive moved locations for work. The tourist info is now in the newly built shopping mall in town. It's good for business, and work in general. Heaps more social nowadays at work. But not enough time to get that quietness to focus on the tasks that require my utmost attention...There are good things and bad things I guess.
Summer has arrived. We ve had our first few days when it s been acceptable to only wear a t-shirt and shorts!! Good for my white arse that needs a bit of colouring. Well, pink...at least. Pink is the new tan I've heard....:))
Am planning to settle down a bit more. You know, the whole grown up stuff - new house and all. Can't wait to get it all sorted. Need to get some paper work in place. Tomorrow im planning to go to look at cars :)
Needs to get her beauty sleep i guess. But before I do i will leave you with a bit of an every day story...
There once was a girl. All she wanted was to love a boy. But the boy was not a boy. He was a man. And the girl was not a girl, she had become a woman. But for the sake of the story, lets call them just that - the boy, and the girl.
The surroundings of the way they met is not so innovative. But the boy had long eyed the girl and tried to get in contact... Their first kiss was that of the movies. Sparkles and all. It all seemed to be good with them. Their future looked bright. They were soon in love.
Then the boy had to go away for work. He was away for 2 months. His work was hard, and he was a hard worker. He missed the girl every day. The girl did the same. They soon realised they could not wait for 2 whole months until they were to meet again. But they were so far away from each other.
So the girl spent her savings. She got a plane ticket for the boy and the girl to meet midway. She got a hotel room. So the boy and the girl had a happy reunion. They spent 2 magical days together. Strangers in a strange town. But more in love than ever. And so happy to get to know each other even more.
The future still looked bright. But the boy never paid back his cost of the stay and the travels. This annoyed the girl slightly, but she was still sure things would work out, and assumed that the boy would step up - and be a responsible man soon enough, without the girl having to tell him to be.
Then the boy came back home. Reality of life hit again. Boy still had to work. And girl still missed him more than ever. It seemed boy never had time for her, only work - and his family. The boy was a man, and he had a daughter...And even two little grandchildren. The boy was a man, but a young grand father.
The girl's heart was breaking every day now. She was sad, and lonely. This was strange for the girl. Because the girl was not used to being lonely. When alone the girl was never lonely. But with her heart belonging to the boy and the boy never keeping in contact... The girl felt immense and dark and bottomless loneliness. The girl kept this to herself. The girl did not share this with anybody. The girl was strong she thought.
Then one day, after waiting. And not complaining. And hoping that the love between the girl and the boy would blossom once again. The boy told the girl to stop loving him. She loved him. So she stopped.
The days went by for the girl. And she was sad. But she did not contact the boy. She respected his wishes. Life felt easier, slightly, day by day. Suddenly a week had gone by. And suddenly....A month.
The girl spent more time with her family and friends. She went to a party with an old friend, and down to the pub one day. Suddenly she saw the boy. The boy was wearing the shirt she gave him for his birthday.
The girl's heart ached and started racing. And the boy came towards her. The girl realised that she had missed the boy worse than what she realized. And the reunion was happy. The boy told her that he had missed her and that he had listened a bit too much to what the townsmen had said....And that he had lived a hard life, and that he could never trust a girl again.
The girl realized that she had made an illusion of love around her, and that the boy - whom she thought was a man - was merely a boy. A frightened boy, so frightened that he did not dare to live his life, that he did not dare to catch his dreams of love. And that he would for always be a boy wishing for love, but never able to love a girl wholeheartedly again. A boy wishing to live in his own safe bubble where everything would be foreseeable - and where nobody would ever hurt him.
The girl was sad to see this - but realized that after being able to see this - she had become slightly more of a woman. And she was free - free to find real love with no illusions. It was a happy ending.
The End <3
Saturday, February 06, 2010
Like In A Dream
I am so happy these days :)
This song explains it all:)
Visit: www.myspace.com/siljekafjord
Here are the lyrics of the song that puts me in that wintery dreamy mood:
Like in a dream
Somewhere far away, misty paths to follow
memories passing by, with every step I`m taking
Days floating by like in a dream
Days floating by like in a dream
Like in a dream
Shivering bits of water and pieces of the world
But the world is giving a bit of its beauty
taking so much more
Calling for shadows anywhere that I turn
Blackbirds of the night tells me that I will never learn
I won’t be able to see in the end
Moments with you seem to slip through my hands
Days floating by like in a dream
Days floating by like in a dream
Like in a dream
I don`t know where this is leading me
I don`t know if I even care
All that I wish is that it`s somewhere far away from here
This song explains it all:)
Visit: www.myspace.com/siljekafjord
Here are the lyrics of the song that puts me in that wintery dreamy mood:
Like in a dream
Somewhere far away, misty paths to follow
memories passing by, with every step I`m taking
Days floating by like in a dream
Days floating by like in a dream
Like in a dream
Shivering bits of water and pieces of the world
But the world is giving a bit of its beauty
taking so much more
Calling for shadows anywhere that I turn
Blackbirds of the night tells me that I will never learn
I won’t be able to see in the end
Moments with you seem to slip through my hands
Days floating by like in a dream
Days floating by like in a dream
Like in a dream
I don`t know where this is leading me
I don`t know if I even care
All that I wish is that it`s somewhere far away from here
Saturday, January 23, 2010
:)
My favourite "high" nowadays? Popping up the webpage that shows my final master thesis grade...
Still can't believe i received an A.....And it's been almost a week since i received the awesome awesome news.
Still can't believe i received an A.....And it's been almost a week since i received the awesome awesome news.
Saturday, January 02, 2010
Ambitions
1st of January is all about a clean slate. I reckon it's also provoked through what feels like an eternity of lazy days and fat foods. My god there is such overwhelming amounts of food to be eaten!!!!! :-O
I've been good though. Haven't been practicing gluttony on the highest level, my stomach and body just cannot take it.
Today panic hit me with full speed. Cos speed is gonna change very soon. I wont be able to sleep in and do nothing. Go to bed in pitch dark and getting up in pitch dark is god damn it very very exhausting....
Ah well, as I was saying. Panic struck. It's only saturday tomorrow. But I need to go to work. I need to get some work done. And I'm off to Tromsø with my auntie on monday (need to be at airport at 0530 in the AM :-O....). Wont be back at work until wednesday. Which will make up for a short week, not knowing if that's gonna feel good or not taking into account that the world will be spinning oh so much faster in a very short amount of time.
January will be very exciting. I will get my results back from my thesis, im going to go to see a specialist and do some pretty serious testing which I'm hoping will give results that I can live with, my big project will be launched (will keep you posted on that one, as well as going into details v.soon. - I haven't actually decided if I'll be starting up with this particular project just yet......;))) )...And i might get to go to Oslo. Would be awesome to see some of my friends yet again. Xmas is more family than friends-time for me, I just haven't got capacity for both. So therrrr.
Hang on to your socks. Will be updating on new-year-resolutions as well as my big project.
Catch ya.
xoxo
I've been good though. Haven't been practicing gluttony on the highest level, my stomach and body just cannot take it.
Today panic hit me with full speed. Cos speed is gonna change very soon. I wont be able to sleep in and do nothing. Go to bed in pitch dark and getting up in pitch dark is god damn it very very exhausting....
Ah well, as I was saying. Panic struck. It's only saturday tomorrow. But I need to go to work. I need to get some work done. And I'm off to Tromsø with my auntie on monday (need to be at airport at 0530 in the AM :-O....). Wont be back at work until wednesday. Which will make up for a short week, not knowing if that's gonna feel good or not taking into account that the world will be spinning oh so much faster in a very short amount of time.
January will be very exciting. I will get my results back from my thesis, im going to go to see a specialist and do some pretty serious testing which I'm hoping will give results that I can live with, my big project will be launched (will keep you posted on that one, as well as going into details v.soon. - I haven't actually decided if I'll be starting up with this particular project just yet......;))) )...And i might get to go to Oslo. Would be awesome to see some of my friends yet again. Xmas is more family than friends-time for me, I just haven't got capacity for both. So therrrr.
Hang on to your socks. Will be updating on new-year-resolutions as well as my big project.
Catch ya.
xoxo
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