The Happiest Time Of Year!

I wish all the nice things about christmas was spread out a little bit more than it is :)

I wish that in stead of 30 gifts in one night I d get 2 a month :)

I wish that everybody could feel the love of family all year around :)

I finished my thesis in time. I got all the presents in place, and my apartment is all dolled up in all its christmas glory. I ve spent christmas day in a daze. A little flu came over me as I finished everything up, and I think it's because I let my guard down all together. That's fine though. I kind of needed it. It might be the dreaded swine flu, but my immune system can take it. Gotta love my immune system, lol. It's so strong.

Era got a little dried up wiener (yeah like a penis...lol) for xmas, that s her highlight. She had it while the rest of us wrapped up all our presents. People are nuts man!!! I can't tell you the nicest pressie I got, cos everything was so nice. I got little puppets from Guatemala. Their supposed to take your worries away. You put them under your pillow at night and you whisper your worries to them, and they take them away :)))

Sis gave me a satin pyjamah and mum and dad gave me woollie underwear and a gift card for "expert". Expert is a shop that sells electronics. I am getting a flat screen telly after new years. :Ø

Future is looking bright. I am doing fun stuff for NY. New project. Will tell you all about it very soon.
And now. I am gonna go for a walk with my doggie. :))) Here's a little photo of her, she got herself a little marine-top for xmas. She loved it <3

Merry Christmas Folks:))))

Still 3 weeks to go but..........

......I want to summarize. I feel the need to summarize!
2009 was the year i..

 

Lost 10 kgs
Got a dog
Got closer to my dad
Handed in a master thesis
Regained strength I didn't realize i had
Did inner work i didn't realize i needed
Enjoyed a long summer filled with happy-moments(i think i  need to talk more on this one):

• Shared beautiful and philosphically filled evenings in Arendal with honeybun Kristin under a starfilled blue moon sky
• Ran on the beach with my pup and made her swim in the arctic freezing ocean and doing yoga with my bestest Anette...
• Drove around in my car enjoying insane views in sunny Lofoten
• Partying with friends and seeing new ones and being social and loving life in general

This summer was awesome.

Other than that....I've come a long way with work as well. And my learning curve has been steep. Especially the Cruise Industry and working within this field has given me loads.

2009 was a great year. Still 3 weeks to go. Am gonna enjoy every minute of it. The darkness and the lighting and the beautiful and stable weather of the season is making Lofoten the best place to be in and xmas is closing in and i can't wait to just hand in my thesis and hang with all friends and family and feel those little happy jiggly feelings in stomach.

Got to go. Era needs attention. So does my thesis. A good day to you all :)

About vampires and others who suck!

Working 80 hours a week, sleeping less than what is human possible and just in general having shitloads on my mind - I ve been able to practise something that I really have not been able to do before.

I am one of those people who is wide open. And it is taken advantage off by vampires. Those energy suckers, u know? And I can be way too nice to just tell them to back off. But now, I'm just not able to take it in. Not physically and not mentally. This has given me the eyes to see when it's actually happening. I haven't been able to before. And now I see it clear as daylight. The worst ones are the ones where I try and try to find solutions to their problems - and the actually seems to fuel them into a more and more victim focused mentality. They are not looking for solutions.

Signs to look for: It is the ones who are capable of turning any theme of convo into something about themselves, turning into negatively charged stories about how something has happened to them, mostly without any fault of their own. They don't want to change. They thrive on the pity and the sympathy that YOU supply - and that's what drains you...

Do you recognize it? Further on, they will go a long way to make you react. They will charge the situation from all angles, to find out what makes you tick. All the while hiding behind their own self righteous motivations. Believe you me, they honestly believe they are in their right to act in this manner...

Do not let them capture you. And leave them behind.

Note To Self

Will be looking into getting tattoooooooooos :)

Can't wait to get started on all my other projects:)

So then I went to bed
And I dreamt of you
Don't know how you look
But your soul is blue

Blue out of trouble
Blue out of pain
Haven't been smiling
Need to see it again

So now I long for it
the sweet sorrow of yours
I can t wait to go to sleep
Again abandon reality and all its' chores

I guess I was blind
I guess I couldn't see
That the blue soul of yours
In reality was me...

(r) Lone Olsen (r)

Gettin By With One Nostril Above Water...lol

I know yeah, that means that I'm most definitely taking in water. And loads of it. It is December 1st now......

My stomach is boiling warm. It does not longer know when it's hungry - or full. My head is spinning - from getting too little sleep. My neck and shoulders are soon no longer seperate entities. And my migraines had my head running on very low for 5 days last week.

Sounds like I'm in a war zone. One thing is for sure. It sorta has been - a war zone -  for 2,5 years. And I have entered my last and biggest battle. My body is first proof of that. I've not been very nice to it have I....

There are so many things annoying me at the time being - everyone are stoked about the xmas feeling. And I don't even allow myself to take it in. There is no capacity for it. Inbalance.

It's not a complaint really, I'm actually quite curious about how my body reacts to not having enough sleep and constantly working with stuff. I am - actually - putting in 75 hour weeks - and have been for the last soon 3 months. If I slack off I feel like crap, and when I work - well the efficiency of it all is quite changeable.

Motivation you say? 110%. This is all for me. It's an egotistical action - one that I would not have considered have my life been otherwise.

Ah well, a couple of pics of my dog for your enjoyment - she is my biggest enjoyment nowadays - can't wait to give her more of my time :) Look how she's groown:)))

xoxo