Check!

Just checking in. Just feels good to move one's head away for a little while before going to bed.

Life before bedtime this fall has consisted of the twilight books. Just so that I can move my head away from all studies, and worries and thoughts about how the hell I'm going to fit in all the things I'm supposed to do tomorrow. But I've reached the last of the 4 books. And I don't want to finish is off. Cos it's been such a nice adventure to forget all about the old ordinary every day life....Stephenie Meyer must never stop writing:))))

Today I worked overtime. Until 10 this eve. And until about halv an hour ago (1.30 am) I've just been updating on my studies. I stayed up until 2 in the morning last night as well, and had to get up bright and early for a morning telephone conference at 8 am this morning. Been a tough week so far, and I ve reached approx half of it...........

My body is not complying at all. My upper back, neck and  has gone all haywire, so today i had to see a physiotherapist about it. I'm going to see a specialist for my stomach aches and my head gives me migraines every other day now. I get it. It's my body telling me that I suck for not being very nice to myself stressing around as I have for the last 3 months.

I'm sorry, dear body, but I can't afford to care. I need to land this. December 18th is the magic date. I just need to stay focused until then. After that...It s all about relaxation. I "only" have work to worry about. It will be a piece of cake! And my body will forgive me and love me...then:)

I really can t wait! im so over this project. 2 years I ve been doing this. Aw well.,7 more weeks to go. I ll land it. No worries...

I will stay an eternal optimist, nothing will break me, it will only make me stronger. I will not turn to victim mentality. I will ace this.

All the best:-*

How To Maintain A Positive Attitude

Hello You All :)

Just wanted to share with you a little video. Watched it tonight:) It's a good tool. Watch it once a day, or just how many times needed. Whenever you're angry, sad or just feel bad about something. It was a good lesson to know that being negative is instant, staying positive is not. Becoming and staying positive takes work!!
xxx

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xd8aTtgs33w&feature=related

About getting hurt...

Helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo :)

well. I don't know where to start. And I don't know about it all making sense. I just learnt a little lesson tonight. I was talking to a mate of mine. And he blew me off. He doesn't share the same music taste as I do. Well..I have a very varied music taste - I enjoy jazz, contemporary, loads of commercial stuff, rock, trance...just a lot of different stuff, and his niche is much more in one direction, I guess mostly within the rock genre (he's a musician). He sometimes sends me crap, that I honestly think just hurts my ears, and he thinks it's AWESOME. And today I was in the mood for some classical Norwegian folk music. To me it s so much more than music. Its culture, it reflects the Norwegian way of living, it s about loving the easy things in life, and it makes me feel. Loads of emotions and puts a smile on my face. And he just blew me off, just said: This is crap, and I don't even want to discuss it. At first I was hurt. And then I started contemplating about why it hurt me. And I realised that it was because I never told him about the stuff that he sends me, and I ve just been like: "yeah, oh really how interesting, cool". We worked it out, he is such an honest bloke, which I respect him for, and I told him, I wasn't going to continue being polite about it. He said, fair enough, most definitely, why should you put up with stuff that you don't like. And he is so right:))))) Honesty is key. And chosing how you feel about stuff is important. I love that I learnt that I'm actually chosing to shut up of fear of hurting someone and that goes beyond respecting myself in the midst of it. I leave myself completely open and chose not to respect myself and letting people put all sorts of crap my way without me setting a boundary. It's so much bigger than this discussion that I had tonight. From now on I need to focus on communicating when I think people are behaving like crap, and just stop tolerating and not saying anything in fear of hurting their feelings. It will take time, but am becoming more and more aware of it.

It's a good thing.

xxx

Enter the bubble.......

Back in the good ol' student bubble I am. Now a little further on and with more adult responsibilities. Full time job and higher academic expectations trying to finish off a master thesis. Finding myself in creating expectations for everyone around me and at the same time back to feeling completely overwhelmed with the huge processes going down with work and school. I guess this is part of life. But I'm not at my best when overwhelmed. Could be better. I can't help but turning to victim directed thoughts, feeling that it is unfair and that I just need a break. Thing is, if I hang in there, a break will come. And also, a sense of achievement, most definitely :))) I just wish it was yesterday......Ah well, another little break just to update status quo and to think of other things than academia. Weekend will be spent studying. And i just need to suck it up!!!

Later peeps.