About getting hurt...

Helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo :)

well. I don't know where to start. And I don't know about it all making sense. I just learnt a little lesson tonight. I was talking to a mate of mine. And he blew me off. He doesn't share the same music taste as I do. Well..I have a very varied music taste - I enjoy jazz, contemporary, loads of commercial stuff, rock, trance...just a lot of different stuff, and his niche is much more in one direction, I guess mostly within the rock genre (he's a musician). He sometimes sends me crap, that I honestly think just hurts my ears, and he thinks it's AWESOME. And today I was in the mood for some classical Norwegian folk music. To me it s so much more than music. Its culture, it reflects the Norwegian way of living, it s about loving the easy things in life, and it makes me feel. Loads of emotions and puts a smile on my face. And he just blew me off, just said: This is crap, and I don't even want to discuss it. At first I was hurt. And then I started contemplating about why it hurt me. And I realised that it was because I never told him about the stuff that he sends me, and I ve just been like: "yeah, oh really how interesting, cool". We worked it out, he is such an honest bloke, which I respect him for, and I told him, I wasn't going to continue being polite about it. He said, fair enough, most definitely, why should you put up with stuff that you don't like. And he is so right:))))) Honesty is key. And chosing how you feel about stuff is important. I love that I learnt that I'm actually chosing to shut up of fear of hurting someone and that goes beyond respecting myself in the midst of it. I leave myself completely open and chose not to respect myself and letting people put all sorts of crap my way without me setting a boundary. It's so much bigger than this discussion that I had tonight. From now on I need to focus on communicating when I think people are behaving like crap, and just stop tolerating and not saying anything in fear of hurting their feelings. It will take time, but am becoming more and more aware of it.

It's a good thing.

xxx