Uninspired

So I got my new apartment sorted. Painted and fixed. I still lack a few items to make my home "complete". I need a dining table, dining chairs and maybe some chairs in general. Juuuust about to get my new living room table a new shine with som painting and then it is all set.

I've done an awful lot of late. And I'm tired. And uninspired. It is a lonesome gig and it feels so final. I don't really know what is next for me, and that is shite. I have always had plans - and now I suddenly have none.

Is it a good thing? I feel like I am conforming into a square life - and I ve never conformed. My personality is my personality...I guess it is how you all in all identify yourself with what is YOU?

And yeah - I am not sure what is happening to my job come fall either - maybe I should just make a decision about it all willing itself to work itself out - It does seem to me that things always work out in the end. But what the hell is the end? I hope it is tomorrow.